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"I dream of a world where I can lay my vulnerabilities out there, open for everyone, until they are my strengths. I am longing for this."
Harper Steele
If you are feeling suicidal you are NEVER alone... JUST dial 988
If you are feeling suicidal you are NEVER alone... JUST dial 988
Or Click Here for a link to their website and talk/text links or click the logo at left.
Basic Info on Living with Suicidal Ideation
Basic Info on Living with Suicidal Ideation
This information is NOT a replacement for Therapy, Meditation or Medical Treatment
This information is NOT a replacement for Therapy, Meditation or Medical Treatment
How NeuroMeditation Has Helped Me Live with Suicidal Ideation
How NeuroMeditation Has Helped Me Live with Suicidal Ideation
Why Understanding Your Brain is Imperative When Living with Suicidal Ideation
Why Understanding Your Brain is Imperative When Living with Suicidal Ideation
Go to the Begin Here page through the link above for more videos and information about the brain, as well as, other helpful info not on this page.
Your Lizard Brain: Robert Sapolsky
Your Lizard Brain: Robert Sapolsky
Search him on YouTube and watch his Stanford Lectures... as many as you can.
Robert Sapolsky on Depression
Robert Sapolsky on Depression
Because Depression is often connected with Suicidal Ideation
The Benefit of Qualitative EEG
The Benefit of Qualitative EEG
Having my brain mapped through a Qualitative EEG (or QEEG) validated so much of what I was experiencing. Having someone explain what was going on in my brain reflected everything I was going through.
Again, go to the Begin Here page for more information on understanding the brain, how it works, how it responds to trauma, the polyvagal system and more.
Working with a Therapist is Vital to Living with Suicidal Ideation
Working with a Therapist is Vital to Living with Suicidal Ideation
Therapists can help you navigate the ebbs and flows of suicidal ideation. They can also help you to explore and understand the roots of this to any trauma, which is often associated with this feeling. Therapists can help you accept the ebb and flow of suicidal ideation and help you strengthen and develop your tethers to to living. Therapists help you keep yourself on the rails and help you get back there when you de-rail. They are a lifeline and a guide through this difficult journey to managing and living with suicidal ideation, as well as, eliminating it for those who only experience a temporary time of feeling it.
Licensed and experienced therapists are the only ones qualified to really work with the experience of suicidal ideation. If you don't have one, find one through the link below.
Turning to therapists is an act of self love and to keeping your promise to those who love you to remain living.
Created and Verified by Psychology Today
Simply enter your zip code and it will narrow down licensed therapists in your area. You can filter by focus of practice, insurance accepted, info on the therapist (education, years in practice), type of therapy practiced (ie: family systems therapy, EMDR, CBT, DBT etc...), specialties, as well as, other helpful information.
Most insurance companies have a list of Therapists they cover in your area and by telehealth.
This website has SO many AMAZING resources, which are broken down in clear and usable ways, to help you that is safe and inclusive.
This link takes you to the crisis section of a page, which has very important info, but also has more info if you scroll up. There you will find links to finding whatever resource you need.
Know Your ACES Score
Know Your ACES Score
Click HERE for a link to the original test and the one considered most used by therapists to determine childhood trauma. This is an important thing for you to know about yourself.
The Vagus Nerve & Polyvagal Theory
What are the Vagus Nerve and Polyvagal Theory & Why do they Matter to YOU?
What are the Vagus Nerve and Polyvagal Theory & Why do they Matter to YOU?
Go to the Vagus Nerve and Polyvagal Theory Page for Images, Links and More Information
Working with Safety
Working to Know Thyself
Working with Connection
Working with Nature
Go to the pages below for more information and meditations for each:
My Favorite Meditations for Living with Suicidal Ideation:
This Meditation anchors you into your stable, rooted self using the vagus nerve; balances the mind through bi-laterall focus and bi-lateral touch
Music: Vagus Nerve Stimulation by Narayanjot Records on YouTube
The system responds and can return to calm when you send it messages of safety. This meditation is helpful for that, or whenever you need a barrier to the world, a deep sense of safety, unconditional love and support, or when you are doing difficult work. Practicing often can help restore a sense of safety.
Music: Golden Blossom - Tranquil Flute by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
Use this meditation to balance the mind, increase focus and attention, and most importantly to interrupt the signaling from the amygdala so that you can bring your system into CALM. This is my version of one from the NMI page on insight timer and also on this page.
Music: Powerful Meditation Music for Concentration and Focus by Meditation and Healing on YouTube
This meditation guides you through shifting your attention inward to: build connection with self and body; increase awareness of, and ability to listen to, information coming from your body which can help you begin to tune into what state your nervous system is in and to assess effectiveness of interventions
Music: Krishna’s Healing Power by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This focus meditation uses imagery of the tree of life; drawing energy up from your roots and down from your limbs and leaves, allowing them to mingle, grow and connect you with the vitality of life.
Music: Golden Blossom by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation guides you through increasing love and compassion for yourself. Observe yourself and how the experiences of life have impacted you. Through the lens of love, connect with both giving and receiving whatever is needed, fostering and growing your compassion and understanding for yourself.
Music: Healing Mother by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
The Net of Indra as a Symbol of Connection
The Net of Indra as a Symbol of Connection
Weave yourself INTO life
This Open Heart meditation increases the felt sense of being woven into the very fabric of life
Music: Village Love Story by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation uses imagery of being both the single rooted tree AND the entire forest to Open the Heart and increase connection
Music: Morning Flute Music - New Day by Buddha’s Flute on YouTub
The Power of Awe and Wonder
The Power of Awe and Wonder
Increasing Awe and Wonder in Your Daily Life
Increasing Awe and Wonder in Your Daily Life
Meditation for Connecting with Awe
Awe is beneficial for everyone, especially when dealing with anything difficult. Do this often - even for a couple minutes when you are stressed/overwhelmed/hurting. This meditation guides you through remembering, with all of your senses, an experience of being in a place where you FELT AWE
Music: Village Love Story by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
This meditation anchors you in your strong, immoveable center and allows you to rest in strength as you observe all thought, feeling and sensation that arises
Music: Bamboo Garden by Buddha’s Flute
This meditation is the basis and foundation of Open Heart meditations. It increases love and compassion for self and others.
Music: Peaceful Garden by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation aids you in accepting and facing the unknown through connecting with your core immovable self and anchoring into your strength.
Music: Calm Mountains by Fantasia Echoes
This meditation can be helpful when you feel pulled in opposite directions or the splitting experience arising from what seems to be conflicting thoughts, feelings, or sensations. By helping you stretch and expand the meditation this supports you so that you don’t have to pick either/or, and rather can hold BOTH things.
Music: Krishna’s Harmonious Flute by Buddha’s Lounge
When You Need Your Mind to Get QUIETER
Various Routes to Quiet the Mind
Various Routes to Quiet the Mind
This meditation uses space imagery to quiet the mind for sleep. Using both the darkness between all things in space and its vast neverending expansiveness.
Music: 8 Hour Hans Zimmer Time Cover by Cozy Sleep Sounds on YouTube
This meditation connects you with being like a tree and then slowly to the feeling of being the entire, vast and expansive forest
Music: Relaxing Flute Falling Leaves by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This focus meditation uses imagery of the tree of life; drawing energy up from your roots and down from your limbs and leaves, allowing them to mingle, grow and connect you with the vitality of life.
Music: Golden Blossom by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to Grief
When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to Loss from Suicide
When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to Loss from Suicide
This meditation is pretty self explanatory. It can offer some sense of soothing to the pain.
Music: Listen to the Flute’s Lament by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation supports you in expanding yourself as you hold both your joys and your sorrows.
Music: Buddha’s Flute - Healing Mother by Buddha’s Lounge
For more information on using the various styles go to each page on the Four Styles page. For other helpful information about using NueroMeditation go to the Begin Here page.
When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to Depression
This meditation assists you in moving through the waters of Depression which ebb and flow.
Music: Bamboo Garden by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to Guilt or Regret
This meditation gently guides you through sitting with your deep regrets and assists you in allowing and receiving the balm of self forgiveness
Music: Dive into Tranquility by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
Be sure to explore the information on the Begin Here page - it has other helpful information not covered here.
For the Meditations Below Follow These Steps if You Haven't Yet:
For the Meditations Below Follow These Steps if You Haven't Yet:
Download the Insight Timer app
**Preferably to your phone so you can access whenever needed**
Open the NeuroMeditation Institute page within the app and select the Follow Button for ease of finding them in the future
When you click the links for the meditations below be sure to bookmark them for easier and quicker access for future use.
I use this when I need to interrupt my amygdala. This is commonly part of any activation of suicidal ideation. I also use it to avert activation when I can feel it coming on.
Choiceless Awareness: Quiet Mind
I use this when I need to quiet my mind, to step back and gain perspective. It empowers you to observe your feelings versus feeling as consumed by them.
This meditation has helped me to understand myself through stepping into the observer; it helps you see your experience as one of a feeling that can ebb an flow.
Gratitude for Your Witnesses & Tethers to the World
Gratitude for Your Witnesses & Tethers to the World
Using Movement Meditations When You Live with Suicidal Ideation
Using Movement Meditations When You Live with Suicidal Ideation
How Nature Can Help Living with Suicidal Ideation
How Nature Can Help Living with Suicidal Ideation
Go to the Begin Here page for more information on how Nature can help you, as well as, meditations for connecting with Nature.
Various Ways to Access Nature: Especially When You Can't Get There
Various Ways to Access Nature: Especially When You Can't Get There
Go Lay on the Earth Feel Suspended and Held
Go Lay on the Earth Feel Suspended and Held
Nurture vs. Nature and Suicide
Nurture vs. Nature and Suicide
The Screaming Woman: Connecting With, Honoring and Caring For the Most Wounded Part of Yourself
The Screaming Woman: Connecting With, Honoring and Caring For the Most Wounded Part of Yourself
Ouroboros for Making the World a Better Place for
Ouroboros for Making the World a Better Place for
ALL
ALL
"Nature LOVES Variety & Societies Hate Variety"
Milton Diamond
Accepting the World as it IS; When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to the
Accepting the World as it IS; When Your Suicidal Ideation is Connected to the
Way the World IS
Way the World IS
When Your Suicidal Ideation (or that of someone you care about) is a Response to the World's LACK of Understanding Gender
The Facts About Gender
Transgender Neurobiology
Brain Gender
The Neurobiology of Trans-sexuality
Changing Ones: Third and Fourth Genders in Native North America
Changing Ones: Third and Fourth Genders in Native North America
by Will Roscoe
Ancient Bodies, Ancient Lives: Sex, Gender, and Archaeology
Ancient Bodies, Ancient Lives: Sex, Gender, and Archaeology
by Rosemary A Joyce
When Your Child is Experiencing Suicidal Ideation
"Nature LOVES Variety & Societies Hate Variety"
Milton Diamond
From a Mother Who Knows the Risk: My strongest recommendation for parents of LGBTQ children
From a Mother Who Knows the Risk: My strongest recommendation for parents of LGBTQ children
Tips for Parents of LGBTQ+ Children in Conservative Areas & Those Who CARE About Protecting Them
Tips for Parents of LGBTQ+ Children in Conservative Areas & Those Who CARE About Protecting Them
When Your Child is Experiencing Suicidal Ideation
When Your Child is Experiencing Suicidal Ideation
Part One above and Part Two below due to dog interruption. I will splice them later.
After losing my daughter Lily to suicide when she was 13, I created this website to help other parents, teachers and schools, and people who care.
KNOW THYSELF
The Facts About Gender
Brain Gender
Transgender Neurobiology
The Neurobiology of Trans-Sexuality
Temperament, Personality and Perception
What Temperament Are You?
What Temperament Are You?
Knowing what temperament you are at a base level can help you as you come to KNOW YOURSELF more fully.
We come into the world having a base temperament. This is our Nature. Who we are is comprised of this and our NURTURING or how we were nurtured. Understanding your nature can offer you amazing insight into yourself. Exploring the impacts of how you were nurtured or where you weren't allows you to see the story that is YOU. Our Nature can't be radically changed. However when we come to understand ourselves better we can gain the awareness to make choices which are in alignment with our nature so that our lives can feel more peaceful and fulfilling. It is part of learning to truly love, accept and respect yourself and the WONDER which you ARE! No one is the same as us... we are connected and can have shared experiences, but the internal world that is us is something which is as unique as our fingerprint.
When surviving loss from Suicide, understanding yourself more fully can help as you find your way to be in the world with this loss and how much that impacts our sense of self, of purpose and so finding our way forward. When you feel like you have shattered into a million pieces, re-acquainting yourself with the root essence of who you are can help you feel your ground as you come back together in a new way.
Why Understanding Your Personality is Helpful
Why Understanding Your Personality is Helpful
Click Above for the link to the FREE survey!
Take time to answer the questions slowly and honestly for accuracy. They offer a breakdown of a buttload of very interesting and helpful information that can help you gain insight into yourself.
Why Perception Matters to Living with Suicidal Ideation
Why Perception Matters to Living with Suicidal Ideation
Redefining & ReCLAIMING Your Perception
Redefining & ReCLAIMING Your Perception
Remember to go to the BEGIN HERE page and Other Helpful Resources page for more helpful information, tools, and book recommendations which can be helpful for living with Suicidal Ideation. Also explore the What Does it Help? page for more specific information to other issues you may face in conjunction with Suicidal Ideation.
Books and videos I find Particularly Helpful
Focusing by Eugene Gendlin
Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Goleman
The Myth of Normal by Gabor Mate
See the YouTube Video with him about it.
The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel Van der Kolk
The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel Van der Kolk
Read this if you have had ANY trauma in your life or if you think it might be but you have suppressed it.
Robert Sapolsky's BEHAVE
Robert Sapolsky's BEHAVE
Determined Robert Sapolsky's new and truly exceptional book, especially if we consider and embrace its impact.
The Biology and Psychology of Depression
Just watch. You won't regret it.
Don't Underestimate the Depression
Although this video has some technical issues the information in it is very helpful and in a variety of ways.
Gabor Mate and the Myth of Normal
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