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"Recognition of Humanity should be the central focus of Human Existence" ~ Paulo Freire
"I dream of a world where I can lay my vulnerabilities out there, open for everyone, until they are my strengths. I am longing for this."
Harper Steele
If you are feeling suicidal you are NEVER alone... JUST dial 988
If you are feeling suicidal you are NEVER alone... JUST dial 988
Or Click Here for a link to their website and talk/text links or click the logo at left.
WARNING!!!
The Trump Administration cut funding for the
specific LGBTQ+ part of the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline
Beginning in JULY 2025
If you are LGBTQ+, you will not receive the quality of the previous (specialized and appropriate) support through the 988 line and will be better supported by calling or texting other crisis support lines
Here are some options for other LGBTQ+ Suicide and Crisis support:
The Trevor Project: Offers crisis intervention and suicide prevention services for LGBTQ young people (ages 13-24). They provide a lifeline (1-866-488-7386), text support (Text START to 678-678), and online chat, available 24/7.
Trans Lifeline: A peer support hotline run by and for transgender people, offering direct emotional and financial support, available 24/7. The US number is 1-877-565-8860 and the Canadian number is 1-877-330-6366.
LGBT National Hotline: Provides peer counseling, information, and resources for callers of all ages. Available Monday-Friday, 4pm - 12am ET and Saturday, 12pm - 5pm ET at 1-888-843-4564.
LGBT National Youth Talkline: Specifically for youth up to age 25, offering information, support, and local resources. Available Monday-Friday, 4pm - 12am ET and Saturday, 12pm - 5pm ET at 1-800-246-7743.
Basic Information and Helpful Tools for Surviving Loss from Suicide
Basic Information and Helpful Tools for Surviving Loss from Suicide
This Site is NOT a Replacement for Therapy, Medication or Medical Treatment
This Site is NOT a Replacement for Therapy, Medication or Medical Treatment
Caution about Mindfulness and Quiet Mind Meditations and Trauma
Caution about Mindfulness and Quiet Mind Meditations and Trauma
Mindfulness and Quiet Mind practices are rooted in ALLOWING. If you aren't ready to allow what may come up, from your thoughts, feelings or sensations, you will want to stick with Focus and Open Heart practices until you are ready. Talk with your therapist if you are unsure or for support in working with those practices.
Focus and Open Heart stabilize the mind and generate balance throughout the system.
How Grief/Loss from Suicide is RADICALLY different from other Grief/Loss
How Grief/Loss from Suicide is RADICALLY different from other Grief/Loss
What I am glad I heard & my best advice
What I am glad I heard & my best advice
This does not describe details of finding my daughter, rather what I was glad I heard.
Working with a Therapist is Essential to Surviving Loss from Suicide
Working with a Therapist is Essential to Surviving Loss from Suicide
The is the most trust worthy source for finding a licensed therapist. They have excellent filters like: insurance, scope of practice, various treatment models and many more.
This website has SO many AMAZING resources, which are broken down in clear and usable ways, to help you that is safe and inclusive.
This link takes you to the crisis section of a page, which has very important info, but also has more info if you scroll up. There you will find links to finding whatever resource you need.
Toxic Positivity - What is it and How to Avoid it?
Toxic Positivity - What is it and How to Avoid it?
What is toxic positivity? How do people engaging in toxic positivity impact people who are struggling with any issue? Learn how to identify and avoid toxic positivity in yourself and in others. Additionally this discusses what to say to people who approach you with toxic positivity.
Beware the Grifters!
Beware the Grifters!
Grifters abound in the "healing" profession and community. Watch this video for some information on how to avoid those who are preying on your vulnerability, pain, suffering, difficulty and/or struggle. Be CAUTIOUS with your heart, mind and psyche - treat it with the care it deserves with choosing who you work with.
When Losing Someone to Suicide Leads to Your Own Experience of Suicidal Ideation
When Losing Someone to Suicide Leads to Your Own Experience of Suicidal Ideation
Go to the Suicidal Ideation page for more tools, mediations, videos and resources
The Vagus Nerve & Polyvagal Theory
What is the Vagus Nerve & Why Should YOU Learn About it?
Go to the Vagus Nerve and Polyvagal Theory Page for Images, Links and More Information
Go to the BEGIN HERE page and the Other Helpful Resources page for other information, tools, resources and book recommendations that can be helpful for the journey of surviving loss from suicide
My 2025 NMI Level Three Certification
Small Research Project
Comparing Two Interventions To Reduce Activation Through Accessing the Vagus Nerve
This PowerPoint Summarizes the Project and Results
This PowerPoint Summarizes the Project and Results
Both interventions in this study were beneficial for reducing Hyper AND Hypo activation/arousal. One is passive and doesn't require you to do anything with your mind or breath. The other is a Bi-Lateral Anchoring NeuroMeditation, for those who enjoy meditation.
Go to the pages below to get more info and meditations for these:
SAFETY, Know Thyself, Connection and NATURE
NeuroMeditations for Surviving Loss from Suicide:
This meditation is pretty self explanatory. It can offer some sense of soothing to the pain.
Music: Listen to the Flute’s Lament by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
Increasing Your Sense of SAFETY -
This is PARAMOUNT after loss from suicide and it isn't as simple as it seems!
Our sense of safety is shattered in both the heart and mind after loss from Suicide. Learning to foster safety for yourself, not only provides the solace and comfort you desperately need, but also, empowers you with tools to best support yourself through this process. This kind of loss UPENDS everything and finding your way through it requires that you tend yourself well.
Surviving this loss, and all the destruction it brings, can feel like an impossible feat. However, there ARE tools which can: help light your way when you cannot see, help you float when you feel you are drowning, anchor and ground you when you feel cast into the storm, soothe and comfort the unbearable pain of your shattered heart, protect you when you feel raw and vulnerable, and empower you to manage and regulate the INTENSE (and automatic) nervous system responses that come as a result of this kind of Trauma. These are SOME tools I have found which helped me in all of these ways.
Please reach out if you need support through this process of annihilation, composting/transformation, synthesis and re-emergence into life.
Go to the SAFETY page for more info.
What is Safety REALLY?
What is Safety REALLY?
Preparation for the Cave of Safety - Creating YOURS
Preparation for the Cave of Safety - Creating YOURS
The system responds and can return to calm when you send it messages of safety. This meditation is helpful for that, or whenever you need a barrier to the world, a deep sense of safety, unconditional love and support, or when you are doing difficult work. Practicing often can help restore a sense of safety.
Music: Golden Blossom - Tranquil Flute by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
Anchoring Bi-Lateral Meditation
This Meditation anchors you into your stable, rooted self using the vagus nerve; balances the mind through bi-laterall focus and bi-lateral touch
Music: Vagus Nerve Stimulation by Narayanjot Records on YouTube
Use this meditation to balance the mind, increase focus and attention, and most importantly to interrupt the signaling from the amygdala so that you can bring your system into CALM. This is my version of one from the NMI page on insight timer and also on this page.
Music: Powerful Meditation Music for Concentration and Focus by Meditation and Healing on YouTube
This focus meditation uses imagery of the tree of life; drawing energy up from your roots and down from your limbs and leaves, allowing them to mingle, grow and connect you with the vitality of life.
Music: Golden Blossom by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation aids you in accepting and facing the unknown through connecting with your core immovable self and anchoring into your strength.
Music: Calm Mountains by Fantasia Echoes
Holding BOTH When You Feel Conflicting Things
This meditation can be helpful when you feel pulled in opposite directions or the splitting experience arising from what seems to be conflicting thoughts, feelings, or sensations. By helping you stretch and expand the meditation this supports you so that you don’t have to pick either/or, and rather can hold BOTH things.
Music: Krishna’s Harmonious Flute by Buddha’s Lounge
Increasing CONNECTION with and COMPASSION for Self and Others
This meditation guides you through shifting your attention inward to: build connection with self and body; increase awareness of, and ability to listen to, information coming from your body which can help you begin to tune into what state your nervous system is in and to assess effectiveness of interventions
Music: Krishna’s Healing Power by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation guides you through increasing love and compassion for yourself. Observe yourself and how the experiences of life have impacted you. Through the lens of love, connect with both giving and receiving whatever is needed, fostering and growing your compassion and understanding for yourself.
Music: Healing Mother by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation uses imagery of being both the single rooted tree AND the entire forest to Open the Heart and increase connection
Music: Morning Flute Music - New Day by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
This meditation is the basis and foundation of Open Heart meditations. It increases love and compassion for self and others.
Music: Peaceful Garden by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
Anchoring Bi-Lateral Meditation
This Meditation anchors you into your stable, rooted self using the vagus nerve; balances the mind through bi-laterall focus and bi-lateral touch
Music: Vagus Nerve Stimulation by Narayanjot Records on YouTube
Weave Yourself INTO Life
This Open Heart meditation increases the felt sense of being woven into the very fabric of life
Music: Village Love Story by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
The Net of Indra and Ouroboros as Symbols of Connection
The Net of Indra and Ouroboros as Symbols of Connection
The Law of Kindness for Connection and Compassion
The Law of Kindness
The Law of Kindness
Living by the Law of Kindness increases our connection with, and compassion for, ourselves and others. Practicing incorporating this law into your life will help you though through this process
Quieting and Calming the System
Connecting with Awe and Wonder
Awe is beneficial for everyone, especially when dealing with anything difficult. Do this often - even for a couple minutes when you are stressed/overwhelmed/hurting. This meditation guides you through remembering, with all of your senses, an experience of being in a place where you FELT AWE
Music: Village Love Story by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
Anchoring Bi-Lateral Meditation
This Meditation anchors you into your stable, rooted self using the vagus nerve; balances the mind through bi-laterall focus and bi-lateral touch
Music: Vagus Nerve Stimulation by Narayanjot Records on YouTube
This meditation anchors you in your strong, immoveable center and allows you to rest in strength as you observe all thought, feeling and sensation that arises
Music: Bamboo Garden by Buddha’s Flute
This meditation connects you with being like a tree and then slowly to the feeling of being the entire, vast and expansive forest
Music: Relaxing Flute Falling Leaves by Buddha’s Lounge on YouTube
This meditation uses space imagery to quiet the mind for sleep. Using both the darkness between all things in space and its vast neverending expansiveness.
Music: 8 Hour Hans Zimmer Time Cover by Cozy Sleep Sounds on YouTube
Managing Depression
Go to the Depression Page for many other tools for this
This meditation assists you in moving through the waters of Depression which ebb and flow.
Music: Bamboo Garden by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
When You are READY!
This meditation anchors you in your strong, immoveable center and allows you to rest in strength as you observe all thought, feeling and sensation that arises
Music: Bamboo Garden by Buddha’s Flute
This meditation helps you to gently stretch into acceptance of things that may be difficult
Music: Dive into Tranquility - Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
This meditation supports you in expanding yourself as you hold both your joys and your sorrows.
Music: Buddha’s Flute - Healing Mother by Buddha’s Lounge
Meditation for Self Forgiveness
This meditation gently guides you through sitting with your deep regrets and assists you in allowing and receiving the balm of self forgiveness
Music: Dive into Tranquility by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
NeuroMeditations from the NeuroMeditation Institute
They have more than the ones below -these are just my favorite and the ones I used (use still) most.
For the Meditations Below Follow These Steps if You Haven't Yet:
For the Meditations Below Follow These Steps if You Haven't Yet:
Download the Insight Timer app - FREE option
**Preferably to your phone so you can access whenever needed**
Open the NeuroMeditation Institute page within the app and select the Follow Button for ease of finding them in the future
When you click the links for the meditations below be sure to bookmark them for easier and quicker access for future use.
Visit the NeuroMeditation Institute's Website for more information, free survey to determine which style you need, free mini-courses as well as longer courses and certification.
IF you don't want to use the Insight Timer App, go to the NMI website link above where you will be able to access the meditations.
This is my favorite meditation for interrupting my racing mind, either for sleep or for general activation.
This meditation helps bring you into a calm and peaceful state of observing your thoughts and feelings. It quiets the mind and helps with the many layers of processing after loss from suicide.
This meditation is helpful for feeling into, identifying, and listening to what you need.
If you connect more with the imagery of leaves on a river try this one: Awareness of Thoughts
Use this meditation to mindfully explore all that you are going through.
Watch these Videos to Understand Your Brain and the Impacts of This Type of Traumatic Loss
How Traumatic Memories Differ from Normal Memories
How Your Brain Changes with Trauma
The Science of Trauma & Grief
Living with Trauma
Honoring Yourself Through this Process
Honoring Yourself Through this Process
The Importance of Nature for Surviving Loss from Suicide:
Nature can be a potent BALM for your spirit through this process of survivial
Nature can be a potent BALM for your spirit through this process of survivial
Various Ways to Access Nature: Especially When You Can't Physically Get There
Various Ways to Access Nature: Especially When You Can't Physically Get There
Finding Special Places in Nature & Being SAFE When There
Finding Special Places in Nature & Being SAFE When There
Watch for the GEMS
Watch for the GEMS
The importance of AWE & Wonder
The importance of AWE & Wonder
Awe is beneficial for everyone, especially when dealing with anything difficult. Do this often - even for a couple minutes when you are stressed/overwhelmed/hurting. This meditation guides you through remembering, with all of your senses, an experience of being in a place where you FELT AWE
Music: Village Love Story by Buddha’s Flute on YouTube
Work with the feeling of SUSPENSION - especially for Sleep Struggles
Work with the feeling of SUSPENSION - especially for Sleep Struggles
Go to the BEGIN HERE page and the Nature page for more information on and meditations for connecting with Nature
When Your Suicide Loss is Connected with the Hate of the World - These are some resources for helping educate people about gender and a couple of books on gender in archaeology and as viewed through a more dignified lens
The Facts About Gender
Transgender Neurobiology
Brain Gender
Neurobiology Trans-Sexuality
Changing Ones: Third and Fourth Gender in Native North America
Changing Ones: Third and Fourth Gender in Native North America
by Will Roscoe
Ancient Bodies, Ancient Lives: Sex, Gender and Archaeology
Ancient Bodies, Ancient Lives: Sex, Gender and Archaeology
by Rosemary A Joyce
Temperament, Personality and Perception - Why They Are Important NOW
What Temperament Are You?
What Temperament Are You?
Knowing what temperament you are at a base level can help you as you come to KNOW YOURSELF more fully.
We come into the world having a base temperament. This is our Nature. Who we are is comprised of this and our NURTURING or how we were nurtured. Understanding your nature can offer you amazing insight into yourself. Exploring the impacts of how you were nurtured or where you weren't allows you to see the story that is YOU. Our Nature can't be radically changed. However when we come to understand ourselves better we can gain the awareness to make choices which are in alignment with our nature so that our lives can feel more peaceful and fulfilling. It is part of learning to truly love, accept and respect yourself and the WONDER which you ARE! No one is the same as us... we are connected and can have shared experiences, but the internal world that is us is something which is as unique as our fingerprint.
When surviving loss from Suicide, understanding yourself more fully can help as you find your way to be in the world with this loss and how much that impacts our sense of self, of purpose and so finding our way forward. When you feel like you have shattered into a million pieces, re-acquainting yourself with the root essence of who you are can help you feel your ground as you come back together in a new way.
Why Understanding Your Personality is Helpful
Why Understanding Your Personality is Helpful
Take time to answer the questions slowly and honestly for accuracy. They offer a breakdown of interesting and helpful information that can help you gain insight into yourself.
Why Perception Matters & RE-defining YOURS
Why Perception Matters & RE-defining YOURS
Our perception of the world can be radically impacted by loss from suicide. Taking the time to examine yours can be helpful with the changes that can come with this kind of loss.
Go to the What Does It Help page as well as the BEGIN HERE and Other Helpful Resources page to explore for more helpful information for the many issues that you are likely to encounter on this journey.
Reach Out To Me For Support Through This Journey
Reach Out To Me For Support Through This Journey
Go to the About/Contact Page to contact me and for more information for the support services I offer.
It can often be hard to find others who understand what you are experiencing. However, connecting with those who have some ability to understand your pain, especially with regard to loss from suicide. Those who have gone through this painful journey can be inexplicably helpful.
I offer a sliding scale for individual work. This is based on your qualification for services such as SNAP, Medicaid and your ability to pay for anything beyond basic needs. Reach out. I am not a service with 24 hour support so be sure you reach out to those that do, whenever needed.
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